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ok.. so I'm taking a next step in my life. I'm improving on myself. I'm going down this path i am on, thanks to God. I now attend a church regularly, and I like its small confines in a church building i attended nearly 40 years ago. To me it is surreal. Do i know whats ahead, or even where I am going? no, not at all. to be honest it scares me, but I need to step out of my fear and take charge of my life, and live it the way I and God want me to be. where ever this path goes, I'm sticking it out to the end. I feel it is a testament to who I am. I am learning more and more everyday about myself. and improving, also trying to make amends for past mistakes. But one can only make amends for mistakes where there was mistakes to begin with, if people don't want to listen then that is their fault, and their loss. I wont go where im not wanted and I know I am a good man, if you don't.. well that's too bad so sad for you... |
| Since I was born in Winchester mass, I am not a native, however I have been in Florida for 40 years. I went to and graduated from Tarpon Springs high school in tarpon springs, all the while I lived in holiday, which is actually territory belonging to a rival, inferior, high school in the area call "Gulf high school", so the question of did I have a favorite hangout spot? of course... it is one of the best beaches in the state Clearwater beach. and it is surprising to hear me saying that because I'm so pale. but yes I go back once and a while but not as much as I would like. I love the beach at night. one day I'll be able to go on my own. |
| ok what can I say. it was a weekend... yes it was Valentines day, but it was still a weekend. Full of work I couldn't get done any other time during the week. then doing nothing else... boring. One day I will have a life... not yet I assume. but one day..soon. |
| what do I do... I destroy the world in a blaze of glory... create a new world..... let the hero win... or surprise the hero by letting him loose for a change. essentially I write to relive stress. After all it is what I enjoy doing. |
| today.. is not what I would call a good writing day. My mind is distracted today. Having issues with trying to focus enough to write. I might be able to review but not able to write as I had hoped to do... oh well, maybe I will later or tomorrow. |
| As being a 'Boston' boy, I always have memories of the smell of Lobsters being cooked. The scent always brings me back to summer when the family would always get together in the family's vacation spot and enjoy themselves, forgetting the outside world if not for more than a day or two, only to go back to that everyday trails, troubles, and the difficulties of life. Just the smell of them cooking brings a smile to my face. so if I'm just standing there smiling, without saying much. that's why. |
| I guess I would show the alien the good things here on earth and that humans have done, as well as the bad things. Because I feel that if the visitor sees both the best and the worst of what , and who we are the better off we will be with them. |
| well I do feel better today... my head less stuffy and I'm not coughing a lot... so I'm good today. was just told that I may have to work tomorrow, I hate that. the company wants rush, rush, rush but there is no reason for the rush... the rail cars wont be taken back to Miami till at least Tuesday or Wednesday anyway... so what's the rush...especially when the guy saying we need to work this weekend wont even be her to help.. I just don't get it. |
| still sort of recovering from some form of chest cold. still lots of coughing and stuffy noses, and with that comes the headaches, of course. its still a bit cool here in the sunshine state, which is weird in my eyes. going to be in a lodge meeting in about an hour. really looking forward to this meeting, because one of my students is going to finish up a part of some training, he has been working hard at this and I'm very proud of him for this. |
| ah! another visit to my "friendly" neighborhood dentist is under my belt. Brushing my teeth last night and this morning was like using sandpaper that was set on fire,on my gums. I couldn't wait to stop. In fact it hurt so much I cried tears. Then afterwards I could barely talk, but dam they made dam sure I got the payment to them though. My Doctor is really, really good. I'm impressed with her work, she is a doll. her patience, and caring with me is incredible. I haven't been the best of patients, and she kept going with me encouraging me all the way. I got to go back in 10 days for a deep cleaning, hopefully the pain will be gone by then. |
| wow here I am today in a small florida town called palmetto... I call it bug city, you know after the palmetto bug, if you knew the town you would know its a fitting name... I dont like coming down here, feels like I drove into another reality down here. yuk!!! not real busy, but at least I have my internet communication, as I havent had it at work for nearly two days. Damm that makes for a long day... tired of it.. i need a new job... hopefully I will get a new position soon... I am trying |
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