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I've never really gone camping or otherwise gone out into the great outdoors. The only time that barely comes close is one time I went on a church Core trip. It wasn't even my regular church but it was the only one that fit with our schedule. They had some group stuff that was not overall bad. But it can be intimidating sometimes being part of a group who know each other when you don't know many yourself. It was a little teeny bit scary being away from home. Even it was just for a few days. I especially can remember when this girl Jennifer dressed up as big foot to scare everybody. That was memorable. I'm glad to say I went and got a bit closer to my spirituality. There's not too much I can say for the outdoors other than I really don't see myself as ever being the outdoors type. But I applaud people who are. I just can't say that will ever be me. |
| I'm not sure if I consider being/having an ex. We went out 3x's over 3 months. He saw us possibly being more and I was frankly ready to bolt. I didn't see us lasting from the get go. He was probably the 1st guy ever to ask me out and I was flattered. We had some good times and enjoyed hanging out together. The thing was, maybe I never clearly stated how things were. I may have led him on without meaning to. There was never an actual breakup over the holidays just kind of drifted away. I think I texted him happy New year but that's about it. I feel bad about how things were kind of left unsaid. I felt he could/should find someone who would treat him right. I felt like a user and didn't care for it. No regrets being single though. Al least if I mess up, I'm not dragging someone else down with me. There is a song or 2 that make me think of our relationship. What Hurts the Most Break Even He's a good guy, I just wasn't ready to commit to a relationship. |
| Cutting across the road with incoming traffic. Texting while driving. People that let their animals run around loose and then complain when something happens that ''they never leave the yard''. People bad mouthing each other. People throwing trash outside their vehicle's window. Bullying. I could be at this all day but I'll try and keep it short. I don't know if this strictly counts as ''habits'' maybe more behaviors but it makes me worked up just the same. |
| I don't know if I'm super hero quality. There's a lot going on in the world that more than one person would to get involved in for there to be any significant change. I know that I can do at least something to help make the world a better place. Can't help everybody but maybe I can help at least one person. Sometimes I think I get caught up in me to savor the world I live in. I'd have to set aside a day to do just that. I'm always absorbed in whatever's currently going on in my life. Sometimes I miss out on things b/c I'm wrapped up in my own worries, etc. Good thing a mini-vacay is on the way. Gives me some time to unwind and enjoy life. It's healthy to give yourself a break now and then. |
| For my online art class I have to do a report on some piece of art by the end of this month. So Sunday we're going to the More Museum in Winter park. . It's has a lot of Tiffany art and his work is really impressive. That's not an altogether bad thing. Plus, I get to bond with the folks, what's not to love? On a happier note, we're planning on doing a mini-vacay at the beach this upcoming week. My brother's b-day is the 15th and he's been counting down a while now. We're all going to need this little break. It's only healthy to unwind sometimes after all. I'm hoping/praying to finish up school work so as to provide me some relief from getting burned out from school work. {In part at least b/c I've yet to master getting a hold on my procrastinating ways.} I hope I can get a start on the work for next week at least so I don't have to keep cramming last minute. Wish me luck! Here's hoping for a mini break from life's headaches.  |
| I'm still procrastinating waiting till the last minute. That is still under way of changing. In some things I've had to change or adjust to as the case may be. College is an ongoing experience that at times I feel I may or may not fully adapt to. An if I ever do finally adjust I'll probably be ready to transfer. I've been on the dating scene however briefly it may have been. Not regretting the single life but it's nice to know that dating is possible for me if not a future possibility. It's scary getting out there to meet people. We met in a class at college, but still. It's almost like making friends. I hope I have been a bit better at making friends. I don't think it's getting them so much as keeping/maintain the relationship . Texting can be so frustrating. It seems that I'm generally the ''initiator'' and hoping someone responds. I'm not sure if it's just they don't feel they know me well enough yet or vice versa. It's annoying, and yet necessary to try to keep in contact with the few people I can say I sort of/kind of know. Shocker: all people I've met/known from school. There's also switching mind sets. That I still have trouble with. Going from ''kid'' to ''adult.'' Sometimes I don't feel like I've matured enough to be an adult though I'm now considered a young adult. Life is tough and it doesn't seem to get any easier as you age. I get stuck in kid mode when I'm supposed to be mature and more responsible. It's not easy and something of an ongoing battle at present. But I've come this far, so all I can do keep going. Taking things one day at a time. |
| My daycare had Twister at one point. It could get a bit tangled sometimes. I don't mind operation but feelings can be hurt if someone end sup lucky. We have a Rudolph themed one and Star wars themed one. I have a Disney clue and the original clue game as well. My brother and me go about it the shorter way b/c it's shorter and not so confusing. Every once in a while Yahtzee comes out to play. We also sometimes play Farckle. Something that got started in Maryland and got brought home with us. We now have Gator Farckle. I think I still have Life somewhere, it might have been misplaced or sold. But anyways, that's the kind of old fashioned fun going down at our house. |
| I'm not sure I can really recall any. But I do know 9/11 happened while I was still in kindergarten. I have a limited memory of it anyway. I know kids were coming and going and the tv was on. I don't think the significance of it, if I could even understand at the time, hit till I was old enough to understand what happened. That's the only memory that really pops up. Other than that, I've probably forgotten everything else. |
| I think everyone has a fear for the unknown or what tomorrow will bring. Some things you can't do anything for so you try to do the best with what you can do and let the rest take care of itself. I got accepted into SSC and that was great for me. When I was still in college and they'd have people from college/universities come in during lunch. I would avoid them from uncertainty, quick grab some lunch before the lines back up. There was some fear in what I'd do if I didn't go to college. Mom says they'd just take my college fund and fly off to Australia. I had a cousin who went and she had a good time. So if college doesn't work out I have an idea what my parents will do in the absence of that. But I did go up and did my application for SSC and got in. Of course it being the only one I did that for ran the risk of me not getting in. But baby steps, I did and got in and here I am. Fall of 2015, a guy from my Eng.2 class asked me out. I was a bit unsure but agreed to it. He took me out once a month for 3 months. We had good times together. I'm not sure I want to continue anything romantic like but if we could remain friends I could live with that. What I took from this is I can go out and have a good time. I'm doing something right on the dating front. I've never really had a bosom friend but I've had friends at crucial times in my life through middle and high school. Middle school was quite stressful and I'm glad it's behind me. They didn't to move away and I'd still be here and it would feel like ''well okay then. Now what?'' Making friends isn't easy and it opens up the opportunity for people to hurt you in the process. But if you do happen to click with someone then it makes it seem worth it. I had one bad experience in 6th grade. A girl I thought was friend ended bullying me and probably the most vivid form of bullying I ever experienced. It still brings up an uncomfortable time in my life I'd soon forget, but I hope I got something from that. If nothing else ''be careful choosing friends.'' As time goes on, sometimes I worry about something happening to the folks and what that would mean to our family. Mom says we'd be taken care of but still. I'd like to hope I'd be able to take of myself and the dogs and my brother if it came to that. I don't know if I would be able to deal with that should anything happen and my brother's still going to school. It worries me sometimes. I don't think having fear is a bad thing of itself. It can be if we let it control our lives. But fear does play it's part as well. It can help make us more cautious of doing potentially dangerous things. Fear doesn't have to be a bad thing so long as we can rein it in and not let it rule over us. |
| I always feel like I've come back from a long weekend when I go back to school. Currently I'm taking online college courses over the semester, one is a 6 week course. So, we'll see how that goes. I don't know if it is so hard to get back into to things as it is '' Ah man, I'm at school again, bummer.'' I think I'm getting better in some areas and still have ''areas of improvement'' like most people. Sometimes it's hard to go from play mode to work mode. I think I can be ''play with not much work done.'' You can be easily distracted when you really don't want to do something. You have to get yourself somewhere where there's minimal distraction and just get to it. Which can be easier said then done. |
I do tend to do a lot of things last minute.{school work} I've gradually been getting better but it's a process. It has bitten me in the butt time and again. I have been trying to get pass this or at least improve myself. I did yesterday getting my college work done. I don't try cause undue stress to myself but if I'm honest, I haven't been making great strides to fully change things around either. Maybe part of it is over thinking things. I can be a bit impulsive which can lead to trouble too. I think if I just do a little bit over a few days, spread work out instead of last minute hustling and bungling, things should work out better. |
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