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 |   Enga mellom fjella: where from across the meadow, poems sing from mountains and molehills. |
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Enga mellom Fjella  Sentinel Marked as if you own me I bow before the Bitterroots and just like you my rocky soil, my withered grass lays prey to the empty sky. © Kåre Enga 2007 "Sentinel"   Reader's Choice of Poems: "Zmitri" "In Lagada, la vita" "Waterlily" "I, Katrina" "Plain cover jacket" Reader's Choice of blog entries from my old blog "L'aura del Campo" :"Death of Jeannie New Moon" "Doing and don'ting. A scene in 2nd person." "In a garden of roses, baby" "A Thanksgiving Dinner poem and the WDC Zoo" "Wheat penny. Gave in, started a forum." FACES     PLACES            Kåre  Enga~ until everything was rainbow, rainbow, rainbow! And I let the fish go. ~ Elizabeth Bishop The Fish |
| Last day of the year (Bahá'í Year 170). ME: I've been very depressed. I've been quite elated. I've been going up and down like a yo-yo. Yes, chores are mostly done but anything larger overwhelms me. I need to travel. I need to stay put and work on my writings. I need... ...a hug. It would help if a friend would answer the phone. I feel abandoned. I feel disconnected. And the cold grey weather isn't helping my energy levels. I did just show my pictures of Karlskrona, Sweden to Bea Johnson here at the Senior Center. That helps me feel connected. Also, posted two vampire pieces and a bunch of fragments at "L'aura del Campo" (two separate entries, even linked one to facebook). That felt good too. So... up and down I go. Where I'll land nobody knows. Which is okay... as long as I know! Maybe I can post a cheery blog tomorrow? By-the-way, this blog has almost 50k views! 49,851 |
| ME: A better day. Edited assorted stuff and posted at "L'aura del Campo" Last night I went to Dana's. With Travis we made three. I read my poetry as both had missed my reading. It was like an old fashioned salon. I could do this... Invite me over for dinner (I'll sing for my supper?) and I'll read my poetry... or show my pictures of one of my trips (Need to organize Karlskrona and ask Bea to be my victim...). So... I'm happier when I've seen light at the end of my struggles. 49,700 |
| I feel like I'm looking into a mirror of the past. This is great but one cannot live in a mirror. My trips over the last 5 years have produced thousands of photos. I could get lost in them. Sometimes, like today, I don't really have the time. The up side? They do bring back memories. I edited and posted some photos from my last trip. Fascinating to actually see them! Took too many too quickly. Lots of work. Some have turned out fine fortunately. Been posting a facebook. These are from Costa Rica on December 20th: http://www.facebook.com/kare.enga.9/media_set?set=a.511392585562037.120529.10000... For instance, the park in Carmona de Nandayure is totally lit the month of December. Families and business have their tree or shrub. Thousands of lights between 8 pm and 10pm. Very impressive for a small town. Looking at the pictures makes me happy that I went. Looking at the pictures won't get me to my next destination, though. At home, I have one picture from when I was 22, almost 23. If I had an album of pictures what would they say to me? And would I never stop looking at them to continue with my life? 49,590 |
| There are days when there's no time to blog... or should I say there isn't always access to a computer... or I just have to choose... I posted some prose poems and "nightmares" in my old blog: "L'aura del Campo" Hope to read 4 of them at a writers group this evening. No time to really sit down, focus and edit. Oh well. Working on my lists... |
| Spring... froggy for Carla Holmstad She leaves her house, nursing the mild end of winter, holding a frog-in-the-throat, chirping past snow-melt, ditches, croaking at a stained wood podium, seeking warmth and the life-giving waters of an audience. © Kåre Enga 11.march.2014 me: In spite of doing things every day, I have accomplished little when I check my list at night. I need to check it in the morning! Another issue: my body hasn't adapted to the time change yet. But with days getting brighter I should be okay. Last night I went to poetry reading by 5 poets including Carla Holmstad. I really liked her "Fire and Ice" poem. I wrote "Spring... froggy" while she was reading and gave her a slightly edited copy before she left. I wove it out of her having a frog in her throat, the podium she recited from (yeah... recited!), the weather, a glass of water Barbara gave her. We spoke afterwards about Norwegian heritage. Hers comes from around Trondheim in the north or further north. A very bleak area outside of the fertile valley. Lists. I need to make lists! Then plans. Then buy tickets. Not necessarily in that order. May you-all not be too froggy tonight.  |
| I'm remembering my trip to and from Parismina in Costa Rica. I've uploaded over 50 photos of that trip on facebook yesterday and today. In other words... I'm living in the past. I ate at the Iguana Verde, good conversation, petted dogs, stayed in cabins, broke the bed, went to the beach, missed the futbol game, took photos, traveled by boat, whizzed by birds, it rained, it misted. ME: I should write an opinion piece. I'm full of opinions. But that would be work! So I won't. Today. Tomorrow? My Mundane Life: I think the coat I got a while back is a kroon (brand) slub (type) sport coat. A mix of fabrics including linen. In any case... saw them listed for $230. I payed $10... or less. It fits me well and has lots of pockets and a zippered removable lining that acts like a turtle neck. It's very very warm. I put it on today and immediately wanted to go out in the "cold". It's around 50º.  And some sunshine! I may have found a good travel jacket. Warm and lots of pockets. My green Cabela jacket (I found for free) is showing it's age. Other news? Not really. I just plug away. Same-o-same-o. Every day. |
| ME >>> I cannot seem to put it all together. Yes, I've kept in touch by blogging (not much) and posting on facebook (an addiction). Yes, I get out every day. I usually eat and use the computer at the Senior Center. Yes, I check in at the various coffee shops in town (No, they are not like the ones in Amsterdam). Yes, I'm getting through my photos of my last trip to Costa Rica. Yes, I called my mother, my aunt and one cousin this past week. Yes, I un-cluttered a little and cleaned a little. A little is better than nothing. Yes, I probably screwed myself by not buying tickets to Europe back in February; but, I can still afford to go to Portugal if I wish. Norway? That's another issue. Yes, my dirty clothes are waiting for a wash; but, that's what dirty clothes do. I'm quite up on laundry, thank-you. Yes, the dishes are washed. Yes, I'm reading. Just finished The Bat (Flaggermusmannen) by Jo Nesbø. Yes, I've even written a bit. So......... What's the problem? Maybe there isn't one. I'm just not satisfied and my uncertainty is making me sad and depressed. Do most people go out and spend when they feel this way? I desperately try not to. I can travel because I am careful with my money. However, I have a bad habit... (besides chocolate) (and eating) I bought another Italian suit for me! Cost me $10. .... And I bought another that's too long and should fit my friend Nick (another $10). I now have 10 Italian 100% wool suits that cost me $90 (most are Canali). From grey to charcoal to black to navy, some have pinstripes. Some are heavier, others light summer wear. 10. And there are still more on the rack that fit me...  |
| ME: There was a storm... there was a melt... I don't have personal internet so my time on-line is spastic. I get a lot done some days but then forget to blog. I've been editing photos from Costa Rica. Been avoiding stressing over my next trip by doing nothing. This too will change. As for Catherine's lament over Italian suits... the thrift shop got a shipment in. I bought another one for $10 yesterday and I'm wearing it today. I look good in a great 100% wool black pinstripe suit, Italian leather shoes, burgundy tie and off-white dress shirt. Believe me... it's the clothes. Trying to keep busy. I've got a copy of "The Bat" by Jo Nesbø to read. Long lists of stuff to do. Just a tad overwhelmed and depressed, so I need to be careful. Last night went to hear Laverne Cox speak at the university. Very accomplished speaker. Great poise during Q&A. She appears on "Orange is the New Black" on TV, playing a transsexual prisoner. IRL she is transsexual. She has an identical twin brother. So... so much to say about many of the American -isms and her specific struggles as a child. She must've been one helluva sparkly child! As an adult she is quite knowledgeable and eloquent. The place was packed. First time in Montana and she wowed us. My life? The suit wows my audience today. Wish I felt as confident as my suit implies. 49,242 |
| Me: The filmfest is over. Since I no longer have that distraction... 1.) I'm limiting myself to purchasing one suit a day. An Italian all-wool suit for $10 is far too tempting. Got one for my friend Nick. It's long in the seam and in the cuffs (too long for me, right for him?). It'll need to be adjusted. However... it'll still be Italian! I spoke to Nick over the weekend and he'll need a good suit for Law School. 2.) Nick and I will need to talk more about him taking over my place for awhile so I can travel. It's only two rooms but includes everything in the rent. Ideal for a student. Which leaves me wondering what I'll do... trip around the world? ...use Costa Rica as a base? ...visit friends? 3.) Tickets... still cannot make up my mind. Must make it up soon. If I snooze I lose. Kalin highly recommended Western Ireland and Cork. I may only have time for Cork. 4.) I have bank issues, postal box issues, issues... I a.v.o.i.d. Therefore, at times my life gets out-of-sync. Time to make checklists... again... 5.) Checklists for trip. Yeah, that too. Checklist to call/keep-in-touch with friends? So many lists. I wanted to send some of my chapbooks off to friends. Having gifts to send was one reason I made them. 6.) Nope. No #6. That would be breaking Scarlett's Law of 5. I hope to be able to report progress on the above this week. The weather has been white, windy, cold and glorious. It may warm up a bit in a couple days. Easier to get around on foot when it's above freezing. May you-all enjoy the last gasps of winter. |
| me: It's snowing. Nice blanket of fresh white. Hides the ice... May snow until Monday or Tuesday. A big storm by Western Montana standards if it adds up to over a foot. We were at 130% snowpack in the mountains earlier this week. This bodes well for water through summer. Last year was extremely dry... about 70% of normal precipitation. All deviance from normal upsets people, it seems. We plan our lives based on "normal", on tomorrow being the same as yesterday. It isn't, of course. Those of us who had to be flexible while we were younger approach change with less alarm than others. And things change. Conservatives and traditionalists around the world face an uncertain future with fear. The oppressed face it with hope... in spite of apparent setbacks. They've been there before. In our personal lives, flexibility and openness is the key. It isn't always easy. I'll try to remember this in the coming year. My ability to remain/become open and flexible will most assuredly be challenged. Pray I'm up to the challenge as the snow piles up and again when it melts. |
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