Night self

11-04-2025

sleepily eyes, not so cool sir, sitting beside window, under pinkish light in a room, thinking what to do, feels nothing, at 01.34 am. what happened in the day, it was dominated by rational mind, what happens in the night dominates by emotions. now emotions are at peak. let's see where it goes. Going against your own mind and fantasy, how much it would be hard?. Being bold in the Infront of everyone how much that would be hard? But ....... not regretting anything makes your feel empty. It feels like it didn't mattered at all, how can that be possible? Now thinking no, that means it matters. So why their is no guilt, no feeling of regret. how can its possible that from eyes tears are running but no heavy breathing and sneezing of nose, doesn't it feels like the eyes, the body remembers the pain but not your brain. At that time what to answer to yourself? what are these tears for? Does those things affects you or not? does those things matters or not? its clearly repressed. The memories now won't come easily, it requires much efforts.