December 2024

Doubtful yet optimistic.

There is confidence in what I want, not what I have; can trust truly be unbroken or only riveted back together. Will the warmth of being with you be enough to eventually bond the scrap metal back together? Or will we cut our hands trying to force the foundation to hold us as we continue onward.


The beginning?

To be understood is something I thought I would have to pry from the hands of ignorance. Yet, you gave it to me willingly and confidently. With gentle, calloused hands and extended arms that looked like safety personified. It’s overwhelming to feel such relief after years of tension in my muscles. I can finally sprawl with the freedom of being comprehended, warmly and quietly. A conversation that brings comfort to this day. Spoken in soft words with careful adjectives, in a way that made the greys become faint colors. A vision? No.. an opportunity to heal. A vision isn’t concrete but whatever this is, it feels.. Tangible.


Playlist

Carefully curated music, a pattern, a puzzle for you to decipher. Not the lyrics but the character you portray for me to make those very intentional choices. Maybe, no meaning behind a song at all, other than I want you to know what this one means to me. Maybe the music, the pattern, the puzzle was always me. Perhaps I find myself too difficult to decipher so I gave you the chance to try.