Cold is Hot

You scream and say the f-word
With style
And poise
Turn around in empty sound
To bend another will and while
I wait, you burn and agitate
Yourself with everything that I did wrong
You're a battle-hymn and I'm a bad love song

You hit me in the face with dread
Dragged me out of bed
Poured indecent thoughts into my head
Made my soul a broken home
And my heart a
90-on-the-highway cop-car chase
Coated common interest with a scarab carapace

You say your love is real
It's not
And cold is hot

I melted down your icy realm
Because I'm such a bitch
We were fine
And you were whole
With your half-hearted care
But now I'm just a spirit and my
Corpse is in a ditch
Black lined palms and broken wrists
Cut-up candles
Kisses in a line
String it on the threads of time but don't look for my body
You won't find me there

You say your love is real
It's not
And cold is hot

Here I sit, a sullen soul
Risen from the grave
Body gone, but godly whole as you
Cast dice on my coffin and call me
Closed-minded
Call me a liar, a travesty
Smirk as you read my epitaph and say
It's good I never got my way
But in your smile, a hole
Belies your laugh
Say what you want, behind my
Back as you do
But never call me heartless
If you know little more, you know
That isn't true

You say your love is real
It's not
And cold is hot

In lieu of all that's happened and in
Spite of what you think
I'm nothing like
The horrid tale you yell
Suck pity from the details and cast
A crying spell but don't expect it to be true forever
If you can't commit
To one you 'love'
Then you'll be wed to never and whether you
Know it or not
Cold is hot