Acceptance

My head is spinning around in circles, my world is upside down. Where I'm headed is like a total meltdown state of mind. Its 4:23 in the morning and I can't put my body to rest with all of this confusion in a world of destruction and chaos. Where do I find myself? Mentally I am nowhere, I am everywhere. Physically I am in a state of dying. How can I live when I am in such a place of inquisitive thought and outburst? How can I live and yet how can I die? This place is outrageous, full of people trying to find a way out of life. How can there be a heaven and hell if hell must be what we're trying to escape in the first place? A parallel universe of mind-boggling disclosure and suffrage. Where we are is an evil world, but yet it's beautiful and amazing at the same time, full of love and trying to be admired when really all we are is demons plotting against one another in the neverending struggle for acceptance.