Emergency in the Backroom

I'm dead to you can't you see
The things that once actually made me
The visions of you and him
Embracing the thoughts that I'd never win
This game is so evil and rigged
And everything falls into this end
Cause I'm praying that it fails
So like me you'll know you lost it all
Feeling alone as you sit on your bed
As endless thoughts run in your head
But I'm joking and laughing to myself
And this cut makes me feel like I'm in hell

And the needle pokes the arm
Blood awakens the spasitic alarm
The morphine halts the pain
I'm so torn up, innane, and almost insane
I'm wishing I could just see you
Use my last breath to try to get through
If I wake up could you be there
Or am I lying to myself that you'll care
But you probably don't even know
As you two are watching you're show
The TV flickers and fades
My best slowly drift away

Mom and dad please forgive me now
My sins are shown as I hit the ground
Can she forget that I acted like an ass and
Everything cause its the only thing I ask
The darkness is coming, you can't save me
I'm dead and gone a fragment of what used to be
A boy with no self consiuence
A boy with no life because he didn't try
And I'm so crippled with bad news
And I can't awaken just to see you
Cause you're my red death
And if if this stopped would there be nothing left
Of me