Perilous Love

Dear Sistahs,

Tell me the truth.
I miss a man that has been
nothing but negative

Tell me, is this the
behavior of some young girl,
full of youth?

I'm a grown woman and
should know better than to
waste my time...

But all day long,
my heart misses him
and his love so sublime...

Tell me,
how is it that he could
treat me so wrong

Yet still my heart
beat only for him...
for him, I do long

How does one get rid
of perilous love?

I've begged and pleaded
with the Man up Above...

I've talked to myself
about this love
that's no good for my health...

I've laughed and I've cried
but without him,
I feel like I have died.

I've dated other men
and engaged in carnal sin
but still, my heart
just wont mend...

He's never been faithful,
nor will he ever be.
When I'm with him, I feel hateful;
toward me.

I know that life is too short
to be dealing with this,
our perilous love, of a sort..

He's been on 'vacation'
now he wants to come to my
sereen location...

What am I? His get out
of 'jail' free card?

Why am I even contemplating this?
What am I, a retard?

How many times does he have to show me
that his love trios is to hot,
and not for me?

Will I have to contract HIV?
Will that be enough to make me see?
Then will my perilous lust leave me be?