I am an Addict

I am an addict.
I am hopelessly addicted to a girl.
The time i spend with her is the most beautiful of my life.
But it's over.
It hurts so much to let her go, but i know i must.
It hurts not to be able to reach out the way i used to.
It hurts not to hold her; that hurts so much.
It hurts a lot sometimes.
In the beginning, i faught the end.
I feared it, i cried, i thought i would die,
but then i found something.
And it has given me hope again.
It is called friendship.
Friendship is a wonderful thing, and as long as we have that, i will be okay.
Of course, there will be hard times, but i need to remember, that this is for the best.
She will be happier.
I will be happier.
It seems hard to comprehend now, but once i forget all of the things i'm losing,
i will realize all of the things i've gained.
I am incredibly happy that this end was not bitter.
I couldn't have done a bitter end.
But the end was not bitter.
It was quick. It was painful.
It still hurts.
But it's healing, and for that i thank her:
For moving so seamlessly to friend.
She doesn't seem to have any trouble whatsoever.
That hurts too sometimes.
But i always remember that i still have my best friend.
And that can get me through anything.
And so i move on to this:
Thank you.
Thank you for being my best friend, and staying with me.
I now realize it's time to let you go.
They say every end is a new beginning.
And now it's time to begin.
I no longer have my girl, but i still have my best friend.
Thank you for being gentle.
I will always love you.
I am an addict.
I am addicted to a girl; and getting better.