Cry For Help

There is this sin that's controlling me
I cannot seem shake

I cannot stand it at times when I am alone
It empowers me as if a little frightened child

How will I ever get rid of this behavior
This mindset?
These thoughts?

I pray to GOD for help
Lord forgive me for I have sinned
Help me get rid of this sin
for I am still a little baby in strength
Let your strength rule over me
Thank you
In Jesus' name
AMEN

Now I am forgiven of this horrid sin
GOD loves me for my slate is now wiped clean

Still...does this sin still haunt me?
Am I losing strength? faith?

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There is this sin that's controlling me
I cannot seem to shake