A mirror of souls # 1

February 14 2025

A mirror of souls # one

No hearts or flowers came today, nor were any expected.

Years ago done for the children and the grandchildren.
When they were there.
When we were all younger.

Conversations fill my mind now.
How no one really cares.
How those who “liked” or prayed for me was a waste.
That it was a waste.
That it didn't help.

Asked of me “ how did they care about you?”
Any examples I gave wasn't enough or meaningful.
Now I see through your eyes.
The me who believed in the goodness of others, is now unbelieving and mistrusting.

People have lied, caused hurt and loss.
I used to forgive and try to forget.
Too many decades of studying, living in the spiritual realities.
While the clash of everyday real life, of people's actions, not their words pressed down upon my soul.

The light I thought I brought to shine,upon the many darknesses, didn't change much at all.

Every community, every place welcomed then closed the door. Money being the master of most. Pretty words but no substance.

If I was a man would you have heard me anyway?
All there is
Is silence.
At least I fed my soul and was willing to share.

For what does it profit a person
To gain the whole world
But lose their own soul?
Mark 8:36

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