Pick Me

For once I'll like to be someone's first choice, even if it's just for the thought of it. I see all my siblings and friends finding love, acceptance and care from their lovers. I have come close to feeling the same but as soon as I feel it, it's ripped away from me. I sometimes find myself daydreaming about how it would feel to finally be accepted by someone who truly loves me. I don't want to be lusted over anymore, why can't someone just try to get to know the real me. Was I just born to be cursed with never finding true love?. There's a part of me who has found peace in the thought of living life in solitude. My whole life I have always been too giving with others but nobody has done the same for me, not even one single time. Today I choose me, Today I give myself all the care and love I deserve. I love you Antonella