If I were to hang myself

Silk is very smooth and slippery. Some studies say that it's better to have a silk pillowcase, and... Actually? I think that's a brand. Silk is very comfortable. I've never owned any silk items. Not even clothes. I just didn't think much of it. So, then, how do I have a faux silk satin ribbon? Because. Everyone has that in their household for some reason. Just like how everyone has one condiment in their house they never use. I don't even know why I call it faux silk satin when I could just say satin. They say silk is more breathable than satin and more "luxurious." They probably find the feel of dead unborn silkworms "luxurious." I can agree though... Actually, I couldn't care less about silkworms. They can kill them all off for all I care. I just don't like rich people. It's a natural animosity. I don't like people who care all about that. I just don't like it. I don't like a lot of things. Like when people sing off-key and what's worse? We live in the same house. And he's my step-brother. And I can't even tell him, "HEY, YOU'RE SCREECHING VOICE IS FUCKING ANNOYING SHUT THE FUCK UP!! HAVEN'T YOU LISTENED TO THAT SONG 200 FUCKING TIMES ALREADY?? GE THE NOTES RIGHT GODDAMMIT." Well, we're kinda awkward around each other. Also, he studies piano, so I wonder just why the fuck he can't get the notes right. I want a family. Don't get me wrong. My mom and my sister are very good to me (like ordinary people, they piss me off sometimes, of course)... But... I want a family...

I'm not gonna find that here. So I'll make my own. I've thought of that but then... Eh, too much work. Silk is soft and easily slides off things, satin, too. It just does that. For some reason. If I tie it into a ribbon, I'd have to glue gun it so it'd stay. It easily slides off, too. I think I already said that. Anyway. If I tie it into a knot, my weight would probably tighten it and choke me and break my neck, maybe it wont and it'll come off... Who knows right? But with an actual knot, your fate is sealed. So I'd rather go with a silk ribbon. There's the russian roulette excitement.