dear Lord give me a new start

i confess these sins to you O Lord.
these sins pierce my heart like a sword.
slowly tearing me apart,
not even knowing where to start.
i read your word knowing it will help,
but my cold cold heart torments me like hell.

i struggle so deep in my faith,
putting you on pause making myself wait.
there’s a hole in my soul,
making me bitter and dull.

deep down i know you’re the only one who can bring me out of my own hell.

i try so hard and scream your name.
it gets so hard for me to pray.
but i continue all my bad habits the same.
i set my own heart into flames.
i know you’re a forgiving God,
but here i am,
alone in the dark.
Lord set me free, give me a new start.