THE DESTRUCTION OF THE STORM

“ okay..” Felix imitates Hyunjin step and stands in position when Minho comes from behind and corrects his positioning “ set this footing straight here and twist or else you'll get it wrong again”.
Felix does that again, but unfortunately twisted a little off beat which landed him a few seconds late to the song. Within a millisecond he stumbled back into the position to try again but was stopped by a loud voice.“ STOP IT!!”.

“STOP IT!” Chan screams loudly. His voice echo's on the wall and a dead silence spreads inside the room, half the members that were lounging on the sofa sat straight with a startle Hyunjin and Minho stopped midway where they were teaching Felix how to get the step right and they felt scared by the raised angry voice of the leader but none were as scared as one Lee Felix, he knew it was only a matter of time when someone was gonna had enough of his incompetence and read him a riot, he had imagined it would be Minho hyung and definitely not Chan hyung that's why he felt more hurt on the inside but the feeling of dread that hyung was gonna throw him out of the team was even greater.
Felix couldn't help but jerk a little and took a few small steps backward as Chan hyung strode towards him with anger infused in his aura around him.
“What is this Felix "asked the leader
“H-hyung.. I…I I am s-sorry…. What "Felix stammers nervously. This response angered the older even more who felt like a flare of fire surge in his veins. his face become more red and fire could be seen in his eyes
“Don't play dumb with me I'm fucking tired of your nonsense.” the leader screamed, silencing the freckled boy with his tone and shoving the boy against the mirror wall behind him.

" Can't you understand a simple task without us fearing you might destroy it? what the hell is wrong with you are intentionally trying to test everyone's patience here huh Felix ! Tell me!! " the leader seethed at the freckled boy who's eyes swarm with unshed tears, with hurt and terror visible on his naturally over expressive face. And before he could say anything m
Felix couldn't find himself to say anything to the leader although he knew it was a rhetorical question. He couldn't even meet the eye with the leader and fixed his gaze on the wooden panel flooring.as he hears the older continue.
"Are you even being serious with all this right now Felix , do you have any idea how much your laziness is gonna cost the team”.
“ I am seeing you not taking this seriously and I tried to hold myself back from confronting you for a long time but this just will not do, we all are stressed, we all work hard and everyone is tired but do you see any of them making as many mistake as you, are you really that retarded, I'm so fucking disappointed in you. Are you trying to turn everyone's effort into nothing huh? Then why are you being such a burden '' the leader’s scream and many gasp can be heard from around the room.
Chan was so angry he wasn't thinking anymore just wanting to vent out all the frustration and unfortunately the freckles teen was the victim to the outburst. Chan did not acknowledge to see the state of the said younger boy due to his rage he took in a breath and was about to say something else when he felt a strong grip on his hand stopping him.

“ that enough hyung !” said Minho with a steely tight voice and choking grip on the elder's hand,

“ stop before you say something that you might regret even more in future than you already will”.
Minho had been listening to their leader screaming but he couldn't help but feel something was off with the younger, call it a mother's instinct but he cannot shake it off. he is bother by it from last few weeks that's why he had always been so patient with Felix he knew it was unnatural for Felix to slack off like this there must have been a reason behind it all and he wanted to approach the younger in a calmer manner and ask about it personally but it seem like his hyung has other plan on confronting the boy with a sudden outburst.
Everyone was so focused on their hyung that they almost forgot about the boy in questing who had tear streaming down his anguished, pale face, eyes red from the tears. he was seeing his hyung this angry first time that too at him, he had started feeling very uneasy the moment he saw his hyung approaching him, his could feel his headache coming back with revenge and a buzz was ringing in his head he felt light headed.

Felix couldn't hear properly only bits and pieces of what his hyung has been screaming at him he felt hurt by the anger look on his hyung and even more devastating thing for him was that anger was directed at him, it was like his worst fear becoming reality, him being a burden to his member, him being the reason his member couldn't give their best, he had so many though going around in his head, he wanted to apologize but his brain felt like sand nothing was clear to him he was very very dizzy and the crying was not helping his headache at all. His attention was brought back to the room when he was shoved against the wall he felt like the air left his lung on the impact as he began coughing and bent down.
he felt a gentle hand holding him and slowly sliding down to crouching down next “It's okay bokkie, just breath and focus here, “ Hyunjin comes up to the younger boy immediately when he sees the younger boy struggling to breath in between his coughs fearing a panic attack from the boy.
“ don't listen to them, just try and breathe.'' He pats his back with a shaking hand as he listens to their hyung fighting.

“Well if you wanna help the team, why didn't you make him practice and get over himself, who does he think he is ? Just because you like him a lot doesn't give you reason to neglect his mistakes.” The leader was not all happy with the interference and too far gone in his rage he was almost like the person during their pre debut but with extra fuming anger and frustration.

“ I said STOP Chan hyung, get over yourself. This is not like you to behave like this ”
“ oohh so now you are gonna tell me how I should behave, you gonna tell me how I should lead the team huh Minho” fumed the leader.
“I'm not saying those things. that's your anger speaking at the moment, I'm just telling you to calm the fuck down before this escalate to something more.'' Minho replied, feeling his own anger bubbling up for their leader, for not understanding the situation and letting his frustration out on the members.

Felix didn't know what was happening. His breath quickened and his head was killing him suddenly he felt something run down his nose. He raised his hand to wipe his face and under his nose. He saw his hand was smeared with blood.

“Oh my god Felix your bleeding” Hyunjin exclaimed whisper with horror coloring his voice, he turned his attention back to the boy just in time to see him wiping his face with his sleeves which were smeared with blood. Hyunjin was very worried about his brother and felt a bit of anger for the older members. Other members were too shocked to even move from their spot as they saw the whole event turn down from bad to worse. Hyunjin immediately picks up his practice towel which was lying just next to where he and Felix were sitting and holds it out to Felix.
Felix took it and turned his attention to Chan hyung who was arguing with Minho hyung both of them saying many harsh words to each other.
“C-Chan hyung-g…I am sorry” Felix whispers softly, unable to raise his voice and slumps against Hyunjin lightly, fresh tears streaming down his face again and again. Han and Changbin moved towards older members to calm them and separate them if it was needed.
The makane moved closer to Felix and Hyunjin sensing something more was going on as the two were crouching down.
Felix tries to stand up and moves closer to Chan hyung to placate the situation and apologies his hyung for causing the disrupt in team when he heard the elder scream at Mino hyung
“He knows how important this all is to me how dare takes all our efforts as a joke and with such an incompetence.”
Felix is utterly shocked at what he hears, he wanted to scream and get down on his knees and apologize to his hyung for making him this angry and he wanted to tell him that he wasn't feeling well but will try his best no matter what. But alas chan was far from listening to him right now

Felix tried to reach out to Chan and hold onto him.” chan h-hyung I'm s-sorry”.
Chan closes his eyes and turns his face apposite to Felix a little mist of frustration in his eyes

“I hate hate this “ he mutters under his breath but enough for everyone to listen.

Felix with his foggy brain interpreted it as chan hyung telling him that he hates him and was stunned into silence. He was in so much pain but none of it compared to the pain of hearing the person you love the most in your life even more than your own life, telling you that they hate you.

'he hate me ' his mind repeated the sentence to him again and again he was trapped in his agony falling deeper in the dark side of his mind he felt like drowning he couldn't breath and and his head felt like splitting in two and before he knew it his world starts crumbling around him, his mind was plunging him deeper and deeper into the darkness, he could only hear a faint noise of people calling out his name as someone holds onto him. He gives up on himself on and lets himself drift into oblivion.