Sad Happy Smiles

Welcome back to Webcord, Stella!

Stella: Hiiii!!! Are you guys awake yet?
Aisha: HIHI!!! I AM (〃＾▽＾〃)
Stella: Aisha please, it's like 2AM for you :( go to sleep
Deisey: ^^^^
Aisha: NONO IM OK I TOOK A NAP EARLIER ヾ( ์ ω ์ )b
Deisey: hhhh no point in convincing her lmao
Stella: Aisha.
Aisha: (◕ω◕)
Stella: Whatever.
Deisy: @ Mabel
Mabel: hii
Aisha: YAYYYYY EVERYONES ONLINE ✩(◠﹏◠✿)
Stella: Yay!
Deisey: nice
Aisha: HOW WAS UR GUYS DAYSSS??????????????????? ♡＾▽＾♡
Mabel: i went to a student council meeting twice in one day.... so tired
Stella: I went shopping since the school dance is tomorrow!
Aisha: OOOOOOOO COOLLLL!!!!!1111!!!!!!11!!11 (๑o̴̶̷̥᷅﹏o̴̶̷̥᷅๑)꒳ᵒ꒳ᵎᵎᵎ
Deisey: isnt it your birthday tomorrow too?
Stella: Yep! It's gonna be awesome!
Mapel: oh good for you!
Stella: mhm! everyone knows hehe, it'll be so fun
Aisha: OH YEAH!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, STELLA!!!!!
Mapel: happy birthday!
Stella: tyty!!! Ok im gonna go to bed its 9
Mapel: goodnight! Ill do the same
Aisha: OKK!K!K!K!KK!!K!K HAPPY BDAY AND GNNNN!!! GOOD DREAMS!!!! NIGHT!!!!


I turned off my phone and plugged it in. I don’t think Aisha's last message was meant for me. When all 4 of us get together, Stella manages to make the conversation about her. I kinda feel annoyed by this, but Aisha and Deisey don’t say anything, so I probably just want attention. I kind of sit with my thoughts for a second. “Ugh, I have to do my homework…” I grab my bookbag and take out my organizer. I flip to the science section and take it out, and then plop on my bed. I grab a pencil that conveniently happens to be next to me, and look at my paper. It’s impossible to see, since the lamp is off. I’m too cozy to get up. I force myself to do the work, anyways. Suddenly, my phone goes off. It’s mom. I feel anxious. I don’t know why, this happens whenever she calls. It’s not like I have anything to hide. She knows about my friends and there’s nothing crazy she’d find out if she went through my phone or my room. But I still get the dreaded feeling every time she calls. I pick up.
“Hi sweetheart!”
“Hey mom!”
“Did you shower yet?”
“No, i’ll do it after my homework.]\
“No. Take a shower first.”
“Oh. Okay!”
“Love you, bye!”
“Bye.”

My mom hung up.
“Jeez” I plop down on my bed. I’m too tired to take a shower.. I know my mom will kill me if I don’t though. I force myself out of bed. I stumble to the bathroom and start up the hot water. Then, I hear a Webcord notification.

Deisey: mapel you there?
Mapel: Yeah, what’s wrong?
Deisey: nothing i just
Deisey: wanted to talk to you
Mapel: Oh alright!
Deisey: can i vent?
This dreaded question. Everyone always vented to me, atleast once a week. I get that kids my age are depressed but whenever I try to vent I just get “mood”, “same” , or “real”. I never get a good response to my feelings. I wish I could afford therapy, but my mom works at 9-5 at 7/11 and we can’t afford it right now. Plus, if I asked she’d send me to a mental hospital.
Mapel: Of course 💗
Deisey goes silent.
Mapel: Are you there, Deisey? 😥
Deisey: yes
Deisey: sorry
Mapel: Don’t apologize!!
Deisey: I just miss my dad. I still see him on the weekends but he’s such a better parent than my mom. why did my mom get custody?? my dad has Waffle, too. I just
Mapel: It’s okay, I get it ❤️ It’s all going to be okay. Soon you can meet your dad, and only 2 years until you can leave your mom and move out and live a better life
Deisey: two years feels like an eternity, mapel.
Mapel: Just remind yourself that its not. 2’s a pretty small number!
Deisey:
Deisey: thanks.
Mapel: Your welcome, stay safe!
I feel like I failed her. She doesn’t seem happy enough. She’s probably still upset. But, there’s nothing I can do about it. I can’t message her after this.


The shower is still running.

-CHAPTER END-

Deisey POV: This December!!