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Circa 1994/1995, No edits, no revisions. Written in my journal when I was 14 years old |
I cast a shadow upon everything I come across. My contacts within are lost forever The darkness envelops me and sucks me into a place I don't want to be My stomach churns with hate and disgust My head spins in circles It floats off my body I look down and see nothing within myself There is no feeling within myself Everything is blank and barren It's like the cold, cruel deserts of desolation No one is ever there hardly but when there is, though, they are so numbed to everything that they may as well not be there They become part of the nothingness that is there. It creeps slowly upon you so you don't notice anything But them it slyly coils around you and tightens its grip forever holding you The feeling drains out of you and drips onto the floor for all the world to see No one should have to hear or see your feelings inside because they will only destroy everyone just as I did when the cold dark blizzard paid me a visit and sucked everything out of me So now, I am just this shell of nothing inside Like a deflated balloon no one cares about anymore because it is no longer beautiful and never again can you restore the beauty to the fullest it was before Doomed to be broken beyond repair Don't become another number in a book Don't become numb like me I am guilty of destroying all with the decrepit, deformed death I carry with me For eternity Damned for eternity Living in a bloody hell I'm everything and nothing all at once. |