Emotions

For a single emotion,
I'd be game
in lieu of this illness
driving me insane.

I soar the impossible
heights of elation
then claw myself out of
Depression's damnation.

Or the gentle calm of serenity
is happily enjoyed for a bit
followed very shortly by
an irate, hate-filled fit.

Confusion befuddles me
where nothing is clear
while other times I'm enlightened
hard-won knowledge so near.

I fear for my life
yet I welcome demise
in a world full of hope
there's only pain in these eyes.

I contemplate the experience
of being devoid of emotion
as opposed to this coaster
perpetually in motion.