That moment of sadness

I am not in that place,
That place to tell you to let go
Let go of what happened
Nor am I at a place where I could deny
Deny that the words you tell stab
They stab my heart

Jealousy;
My very enemy
Although I know that it no more exist in material
But the fact that you still have those shadows with you from your past
It pierces my heart and burns my soul

Yes, sadness and melancholy
I know these will always follow me
They will follow me to my grave I know
But that very instance of sadness
Is when you share your inner side
Thinking I am there to listen
But I just cannot hide
Just cannot hide those burn in my heart
Through my weeping eyes

I don't know who is to apologize
And what is to be said or feel
But still I guess I am to apologize
For not having control over my heart
My mind and my body
The ways they respond
And the consequences afterwards....