Wilderness

Wilderness is most of us are in some days.
Staggering around in the hot desert sun.
Wondering how many days has it been.
No, Civilization.
Looking around seeing nothing but sand.
I fall down into my knees wondering where I am.
Am I getting close to civilization?
Am I getting close to some sort of life?
Still nothing.
Wondering around in this wilderness is the last thing I wanted to be in.
No Friend,
No Love,
No Remorse
No Comfort
Nothing but emptiness between me and the sand.
I fall down on my knees with the sun beating its rays against my skin.
I am needing comfort.
I look up the sunlit sky seeing its harshness.
Then my head drops, knowing there's no comfort here.
Gets from up from the sand floor, steadying myself.
I keep walking.
I keep pushing forward
I feel stronger suddenly.
Freer.
Independent
Solid.
Like a Tree being planted beside the still waters.
Nothing can move me.
I hear a voice calling out to me.
"Come Home." He said.
I look around and see who was speaking to me.
No one is there.
Night falls.
I hate the dark, I thought.
I laid down on the sand floor having my eyes closed.
Suddenly I feel wind and heat against my skin.
Morning already?
No.
I see a pillar of fire being my night light.
I'm watching it flicker and turning.
It's camped around about me.
Watching in full glory of it.
Thunder and Lightning hit.
My eyes widen with amazement.
"Come Home" The pillar of fire said.
"How?" I asked it.
"How can I come back home, when I don't know where to go?" I continued.
"You have to keep moving. You have to keep going, you can't stop for nothing." The pillar of fire paused for a moment.
"This wilderness is making you what I WANT YOU TO BE."
"Who are you?" I asked.
"I AM THAT I AM."
It was The Lord.
"Daughter, you have to keep moving. I am bringing Egypt out of you. When you come back home, you will be better than what you was before. I knew you, before I knitted you in your mother's womb. I knew who you was going to be, who you are meant to be. I came searching for you. You do not understand what I am doing now. But, you will, soon."

Personal Note: The Wilderness Is made to bring you out of religion, tradition, your own ideas away from you. We got to have this wilderness to become stronger and be better what we was before.

For me? I was fearful, worrier, angry, lustful, didn't know if I believe in a God or not. This is a personal growth for anyone that is going through similar experience, that I am.

But a lot of religion talk and made me astray away from God. I felt like I was going to burn all the time. Because I would have a natural human emotion, about something, someone would say "You'll Go to Hell for that."

I was having some problems, a spiritual warfare. I just gave up on everything. I can talk about the wilderness because i am in it.
I might not be in same situation what you are dealing with.. But I can honestly say I am there..