Friends

They are gone.They are my besties.I made so many mistakes.I am a bad person.I miss 'em.Every single day I wake up sad,mad,angry coz I miss you guys,it's so hard to live without you.Tears comes in my eyes without asking me.I cut myself and I wanna die.I miss you idiots.I miss ur girly voice when you missed one pass Ebio,I miss ur football lessons Mari.I miss playing football with you guys.I miss your punches Mari,I miss ur jokes Ebio.I used to call you my bro I used to call you my sis.You two were there for me to make me f*cking smile.For god's sake I miss you.This world is so f*ckin' shitty without you.I feel lost without you my bro and sis with other mothers. I've made so many mistakes those days. I am ending everything those days I am fuckin' messin' up everything.It's so hard to be happy without you two.My heart is figtin' with my mind.I can't sleep I think I lost myself,I lost HIM,I lost my parents's faith,I lost you two.Do u know how hard is?.....believe me you should not think about it do not even make that idea comes at your mind.Forget HIM you two would say but I CAN NOT.For god's sake is so hard.Every morning I wake up and I put a f*cking fake smile in my face and I think this day is going to be worst than the day before.I thought I had everything.....I was stupid,young,idiot and I don't know whatelse I was!I need you guys.I am so sad.I do not have you anymore.This is the most stupid mistake I've ever done in my life. I don't know what to do anymore.I am lost.I hope you'll forgive me one day for my mistakes.I shared my dreams,hopes,ideas with you guys I shared my secrets with you my two idiots.I love you guys.My idiooooooooots.I wish we can be together again as OVERHEADERS.I'll always miss you.I hope we find each other again my friends.I would have done anything just to see us together playing football.My fucking school life is so shitty and boring without you my idiots.I wish I could hug you now guys.Who remember emxhej huh? It was funny for god's sake.When we wanted to attack you Ebio.Those moments were funny. I miss you and I will always mis u two 'til I die.

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