All That I've Ruined

I can't bare to think of all the things I've ruined,
Especially when it comes to you.
We'll never be unbroken again,
And I'll never get the chance to love you.

Back then my mission in life was to hear you laugh,
And drink too much and party too hard.
But my poison was jealous of what I couldn't have,
And in the end I folded my cards.

I left you in the middle of your birthday party,
I left you in the middle of my mess.
I left you and I never returned;
I left you and I'll never rest.