Stuck in a bad place

Was stuck in a bad place had to find a way out.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels?

Had to start from the ground up. With no desire to even get up. In fact I was close to giving up. Tell me Do you know how that pain feels?

Thought I'd always feel this way. Took me 5 years to bounce back.

Those were 5 really hard years. Where I certainly lost myself. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?

Came close to giving up but I never stopped trying even when I wished I was dying.

Tell me do you know how that pain feels?.

Reached out to everyone I knew. But I became to much to take. Too much to tolerate.

Tell me do you know how that pain feels?

But I remember It felt like someone ripped out my heart and soul and took everything I had that was good and trapped me in a dark hole. With no escape, no way out. On the inside screaming out but no one could hear me. No one dared to come near me. They just listened to my heart wrenching cries and continued to walk. Because I wasn't actually screaming on the outside.

Tell me do you know how that pain feels?

I woke up every day to relive the same recurring nightmare one that wouldn't go away.

I'm no angel but I'm the one who chose to save me. I took the steps I needed to take to seek help. At first it didn't work out. But then I found the right medicine and I began my journey to feel free. To feel like me again.

I lost a lot of 'friends' now I find ways to cope. Reasons to smile. And I do it mostly alone. And for once I feel good inside. Like the weight of the world is off my chest. And I actually like me again and enjoy spending time with myself.

Tell me do you know how good that feels?

If your battling depression I wish recovery for you. Because it's no place anyone wants to be.

I hope you never know how that feels.