Why must I run?

Why must I run? run far away
Why must I hide ,why can't I stay?

Is it too much to ask about what's underway
I stray, I lay, but why can't I just stay

With words and actions, consequences compare
but what must be there, as I stare?

I bare witness to my flaws, my faults, as I fear my judgment is near
Is it here? Why am I unsure as I try to confer for what I Hear, for is it not there?

Why must I run towards the perils of judgement and deceit?
Why can't I just hide, Why can't I just face it?
Am I not fit?

I'm running, far far away...away towards what I choose or?
towards what I must? to Seek solace and Repose within myself, away towards, others...
for why must I run?