Not You Again

Not you again
The voice inside my head
That screams for me to end it
Not you again
That wretched feeling inside my stomach
Which drives me crazy when I have these feelings inside
Please not you again
As I scream from the paralyzing nightmares that tear me from my sleep at night
The ones that haunt my thoughts during the day after a sleepless night
Not you again
The thoughts make me walk through life like a zombie
Mascara staining my eyes from countless times of tears from my terrified inner child
Not you again
I saw to the demon in my mind they call depression
The creature that doesn’t let you see reasons worth living or breathing
Not you again
She said as she help onto her wedding planner
Wishing you wouldn’t have ruined the most important thing she’s been dreaming of
Not you again
She says as she cries over her wineglass while her husband isn’t there anymore
She dreams of what happy people feel like and how amazing their lives are
Not you again
As she shakes her fist at the demon laughing at her inside
Taunting her as she tries to figure out how to fix everything
Not you again
She says as she knows what she has to do
She writes her last few things in her wedding planner and cries
Oh please not you again
She’s numb and grabs the only friend she’s ever known
She dreams of the warmth of her husband’s arms and hoping her knows she loves him
Not you again
She drags down and feels the sting of pain and the dripping down her arms
She knows he will be happier without her there to be controlling
Not you again
The demon who won
The death of a young girl
Oh you again
A tragedy overlooked by many
A disease called depression