After Midnight Thoughts.

Why should I be alive? What am I doing? More than 50% of the people who know me already hate me, I spend most of my time doing absolutely nothing, my future seems darker than batman's cave. What the fuck am I living for? I haven't been into much yet, but at this rate I'm sure that soon I'll have to get through a lot of shit and I just don't know if I can handle it. All that keeps me alive is mom, dad, sis and less than a handful of friends. Not that I know any of them care, Just because I know I care. So, God please take me by your side or show me what to do.