That's how I'm feeling today 3

Am I dead inside?
Or am I only numb.
Feeling petrified.
Don't break my statue.
For all I know it's still waiting.
Waiting for me to wake up.
Waiting for me to light up.
Why I can't it doesnt know.
I'm trapped.
How come I'm the cursed one.
Cursed to live locked in this dark room.
Seeing through a window only shades of gray instead of color.
I'm tired.
Still trying but the door is unbreakable.
From outside one must hear my scream.
From outside one must feel my will.
To escape and be free.
Will I ever be saved.
The joker gave me only two choices.
Either live cursed or quit.
I don't want to quit.
I'm tired.
I can't hear him but he's laughing.
I can't see him but he's watching.
I can't feel it but his strings are skin tight.
Someone will find me.
I'll wait.
And when my statue once again brought to life will be.
And when this room finally empty will be.
Joker's days will come to an end.
"HaHaHa"
I'll finally win.
"HaHaHa"
I'll be free forever.
"HaHaHa"