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What is gained if this isn't me? |
I'm under the impression That our obsession's reached a point of depression, a state of reflection that leads me down a winded path One that doesn't seem to last Near sightedness makes the sight of this too much to handle, and the vision fogs up with salted tears the more I think about all the ways you could say goodbye The sense of guilt and fear drifts by, passing with a wave and leaving me to skip along a trail of uncertainty and self-hatred And all the while I remind myself that you cared You cared enough to step up and back off, you cared enough to show me your emotions before shutting them away, and you cared enough to look at me with love despite feeling so replaced Your face has been cracked apart by the pain you hide beneathe it and this place is buckling under the weight of our lack of achievments, and they martyr us for our sense of defeat despite the fact you dragged both yourself and me up from our knee's And now your lonely and it's all my fault I won't pretend that it's not, I just wish I had stopped I'm falling into a vad of choices I can't make up and I'm depending on your answers but I can't wake up to hear them... And so I'm stuck in a state of loss and abandonment despite you being the one both lost and abandoned And this message isn't to say I'm sorry Sorry for being angry Sorry for resenting you for loving me admiring me Sorry for finding value in your head instead of your heart, for appreciating your skills instead of your passions, and for praising your sights instead of your speech It's to say thank you Thank you for loving me enough to remember me when I forgot about you For giving me the benefit of the doubt, for not having the doubt in the first place And while life may take you in any direction, I want to thank you for first choosing mine For relinquishing the binds that trying times held me with and giving me the belief that I could be something better, thank you for seeing me as someone better I only pray that you'll remember... Remember the love and laughter that we had, even on those rancid months of december When you threw a birthday party and we both screamed so loud our hearts became as cold as the weather, and even when all we ever have to talk about ends up being the weather, that's fine Because like you, i just want to be remembered So thank you for being apart of my life I sincerely hope you continue to be |