Not Enough For The Person Who created Me

It was abandonment that i had experienced at
a young age
Yet i never knew it was you that had created this horrible
soon beautiful feeling
inside of me
And when i say beautiful i don't mean Beyonce
i mean the beauty that had came from
my pain
The pain that was to much
for me
that i had to make its presence lovely
so i can bare the feeling
But here i am trying to make not enough
into something good