TWISTED, SICK.

Addiction,
you have sent me reeling
headlong over feet

I sneak around and lie for you,
it’s important that I’m discreet
So nothing comes between us,
cause I need you around

You pick me up we dance,
twirl,
spin,
right before you knock me down

Addiction are you angry?
I feel strongly that you are
I scream at you
“DON’T LEAVE ME”
I wear your tell-tale scars

I mainline this cyanide
through my eager veins
Twisted sick compulsion
needles stabbing kills my pain.

Devouring any hopeful dreams
that I could one day be
Someone to be cherished,
loved and truly happy

When I was ten he pushed you in,
hoping I wouldn't tell
Now we are inseparable,
depravity is where we dwell

Trust me I don’t want to feel this shit
so I stay high
Until the day comes to pass
when I don’t want to die.

Heidi Shavill
2013