Popp 'n' drink

I thought I had made it
Keeping myself sober and happy for good
Then creeping up apon me
I'm poppin pills and drinking like I never should
I struggled so long to make it
I passed milestone afther milestone so well
Then like a snake creeping at me
I now sit here, popping pills and drinking like a well
I feel so restless all day long
And finally when darkness comes I feel safe
I open a can - that I have hidden somewhere
and afther swolloing the pills and beer I'm nolonger a fake
As I walk through the day
I feel like I am faking everything about who I am
I'ts just afther a couple of ice cold beer
mixed with pills I feel relaxed and normal again
I know where this is going
I have traveled this dark and shaky go-around way before
But I thought I had finnaly made it
To the place where I could drink - then stop, no more
Now I find myself in a darker place
I hide beer-cans, pills and booze all over the house
I think about when I can Popp 'n' drink all the time
counting the time - sneaking around like a mouse
I know I have a problem
I know I can change this road that I am on
But for tonight I'm gonna popp 'n' drink
And maybe - hopefully - by tomorrow the urge will be gone