poems from 2016-2017 |
November 22, 2016 i bust open Gwendolyn’s package of minutes. the tick-tock things harnessed by tired arms, framed in facial features. she speaks until the sky loses its orange. the streaks fleeing like feet breaking away. at 10:18; stuck like the stars against that chalky black backdrop banging out thunder. hope is far off. stuck to the oars you forgot to stick in the boat before embarking. we are in that sea. we are the tattered sheets bashing against the wind, the corks gripping the glass edges of each bottle bobbing between the swells they rise like chain link fences stacking up to seal off the sun; its rays peeking through the kite-shaped crevices. i breathe in the shards of light, slick metal, small gaps big enough for gleams and flickers to pour through. I’m envious of that blaze and how easily it seeps towards escape. it doesn’t fumble doesn’t grope doesn’t slip thrash or labor. only flows. you are adrift, i am a shipwreck, a colossal mess, run aground miles below the steady currents of expectations, below a waterline constructed of worthless plastic boats forever afloat far from home. and I can barely see the glowing skyline reflections lapping against the foam. you remind me that Rome wasn’t built in a day- something about how bricks can be preserved, ruins reinforced, recreated like religion through copper telephone wires. you remind me as we paddle back to retrieve our oars. i'm awake, sort of i’m awake, sort of. like a morning sun inching itself over a death gray landscape. you say the world is “alive” all I know is that it is “vast” and its life can’t stretch far enough to quicken my pace most days. short strides carry me past the old Pour House building, housing a dump of snow on its overhang. ice that clings to the morning like a child’s hand grasping railings or the coat pockets of a parent descending steep stairs. like the winter, unwanted i’m the blurred images deteriorating in the pages of local history books. black and white snow drifted upon the folio in a bank of moments. you are the gloss. the sharp shots carried closest to the hearts of large crocks nestled in the corners of midnight kitchens. at 1:20 you sneak away to attach yourself to passerby carrier pigeons, perfumed with rose petals. i smell you in the air, rising from beneath my lofty hopes of arriving home in time to sleep. i spot you in the hues of the November sun airing towards my tiny town already drenched in charm. the pressing of my ear to the ground illuminates an earth that until this moment was distant- it’s embers wouldn’t catch on the Oak leaves shuddering above the warmth. |