To the abusive one

To the abusive one

Dear john

You always insult my intelligence and pretend that I need you to survive. You attempt to dominate me, then hit me once I don't comply. I regret the day that I fell for you. I regret the day that I gave you my heart because after that, you began your vicious cycle of abuse. Narcissistic and brutal. I ignored your blows and rage by abusing cocaine and alcohol for so long. They became my friends and with them I was able to deal with your rage. Now that I see you for what you are, jealous, possessive, and controlling I can leave you. It was never love, as I foolishly believed. You will never love me..