The thoughts of Insomnia

Have you ever just laid there next to the person that you loved and watched them sleep? Taking in their every feature as if it was the last night that you may get the chance to do so? I have a million times, it's almost as if I could draw his features blindly. Our bodies so close and yet I dare not touch him, so as I don't accidentally wake him from his sleep. So peaceful and calm. Handsome and yet strangely beautiful against the shine of the soft light coming in from the window. If ever I was to die happy right now would be that moment of complete serenity that I would hope to take me from this world. But something tells me that this is not my night to be taken nor my moment to be mourned. So I'll just lay here and watch him sleep instead.