Devastation And Anger

Days pass slowly, yet quickly for me now.
Your rings and your dog tags burn on my skin.
We've fought the same fight, over and over.
But with every argument, it seems neither of us win.
I'm losing myself; who I am and my beliefs.
I've given up on pleasures for no one's joy but your own.
I'm not longer good enough; never right, just wrong.
My agony grows endless, for I'm always alone.
I've cried empty tears, on the inside and out.
You've pushed me and kicked me and I try to be strong.
My chest is in pain and I am losing my will.
For I've never endured this struggle this long.
I want to stay with you and I want to be yours.
But I can't even trust you with the secrets I hold.
I'm feeling pathetic, worthless and useless to you.
When I ask for you're help, you're so hateful, so cold.
You throw my past in my face like a sick twisted game.
You yell at and lecture me when I'm trying to help you.
I don't understand what I did to deserve your anger.
I'm usually composed but I just don't know what to do.
I try so hard to appease to you in anyway possible.
But you throw it in my face or you step on my heart.
I dread losing you and I dread when you're gone.
But how am I to love when my love's being torn apart?