I Will Never Never Never

Long before we met,
You drank away your brain;
You can't tell right from wrong,
you're barely this side of insane.

Your soul is full of darkness.
From the church Elder's scam.
Said you needed funds for living
But neglected a mention of cans.
Marking time,
Stacking empties
Into some mountainous barking, teetering
Aluminum beast.

When you say,
"Love you mean it,"
I feel the 20-odd years,
I tried to help another man,
A drinker of your hopeless clan.
Only after 18 years,
Came the confession.
I understood he couldn't understand.
And finally I ran
And hid
To save myself.

You've pissed away your heart.
You have nothing left to share.
You're a shadow of yourself.
You are the walking dead.

I will prove that God loves me.
You are banished from my life:
You are the devil's indication.
Did the same to your ex-wife,
And your friend who fled
Through suicide.


Good Lord,
Spare me.
I love my life.
And hate those who eschew
Self-destructive strife.