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No one sees the inside of me. I'm not complaining; I'm simply stating the truth. That's what I do; I'm honest. .. Deal with it.. or don't. That's your choice. . I think of what it may be like to experience someone so close to you, your own.. soul. .. I wonder if all I'll ever do is imagine.. Good thing I'm good at it. .. I'll drift into any abyss.. no matter the turns.. just go to go.. to be able to do something different.. I know why.. I'll be hoping to feel.. I know at my core I feel deeply, but I'm too detached. So no, not now.. I don't feel.. I'm immune.. Immunity likely is automatically thought of as a positive quality.. What if you were immune to experiencing, feeling love? What then.. is that okay with you.. or no. .
So many people wonder of their future, their purpose.. I wonder and wander mostly in the present though.. I reside.. in the past I presume... It's the place I know.. it's where things stay the same.. I can more easily explore.. with no thoughts to further implore..
I like the unexpected, yet rarely receive it.. Not excited.. But I'll surprise you. .. whether you like it or not
Compassion can seethe from my pores. Sometimes I wonder though if indifference is weighing more.. Though I do know I care.. deep. . but no one ever seems to get a view in so steep.. ly vastly blowing growing showing.. don't see .. I'm me.. who is that though.. How would one describe the existence of a creature.. by their features?.. likes, dislikes.. I show near no favoritism.. I'm not up for being defined.. I fit and go by no dotted guidelines. . I'll leave .. looking back to see what you perceive.. Don't leave!Don't leave.. Please, don't leave me.. this odd little part in me cries.. I want to be hugged, cuddled, wrapped up in arms.. loved.. touched.. touched at heart.. feeling my immunity part. .. but it's just a daydream.. I dare to ponder.. What of it could ever actually be conjured
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The oceans haunt my dreams.. night is dead.. falling forgotten.. lights so bright.. wish wish it were pitch black night.. but no this water pours.. drenched.. floundering about.. flipping spinning.. splash make waves, wanting out.. wanting deeper too .. what what is this.. this sorcery.. impostors.. a'agh.. no no .. oh yess .. deeper feeling more.. submerge my soul in this endeavor.. come closer.. inside .. beneath between.. let me see what's past this submersion.. what comes next.. the light so bright.. I want to go through the tunnel.. take me.. fill me with your spells .. let me see what you perceive me to be.. I want to know the deeper depths of my soul.. I'm daring daring to go.. let's go.. oh the snow.. dripping wet.. leaking peaking.. melting raw. Some more.. go .. down.. climb.. enrapture capture.. I know.. grow .. getting down low.. bending down' break.. somehow know the limits.. brreaak.. them harsh.. linger.. fingers.... Drench sweat.. come closer down deep.. taste. Ponder.. essence beauty
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Don't you dare compete with my anger. I don't anger.. much.. rare.. This is not a jewel you want, though. Run.. don't hide. I will slice you to pieces if you dare do the things that would make me this way. I will leave a hole forever burning in your puny, helpless heart that ceases to feel love. I hope you get the idea. .. I'll leave it at that. Call it sufficient.