I Love You, But You Love Him

I love you with all my heart and soul.

I love you with every blink of my eyes.

I love you with every breath I take.

I love you with every beat of my heart.

I love you with all that I am.

I love you, but I never told you.

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How are you? It's been a while since we last talked. What happened to us? Why did we end up this way? I never wanted any of this. We were so close to each other. Every day that we're together, it seemed as if I'm in heaven. That dazzling smile of yours, I miss that... I miss you.

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I hope you're fine, 'cause I'm always thinking of you.

I hope you're happy - with him.

I hope he doesn't hurt you.

I hope he touches your face with so much love and care.

I hope he sings you your favorite song.

I hope he makes you feel wanted.

I hope he hugs you every night.

I hope he kisses your lips... NO!

I hope I can kiss your lips.

I hope I can hug you every night.

I hope I can make you feel wanted.

I hope I can sing you your favorite song.

I hope I can touch your face with so much love and care.

I hope I wouldn't hurt you (if I were your man).

I hope it's me you're happy with.

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Haa... call me desperate... call me illusionist... but I love you. I. Love. You.

I love you even though I shouldn't.

I love you even though I mustn't

I love you even though it hurts.

IT HURTS.

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Why can't we be? Why can't it be you and me? WHY? Why does destiny have to let me feel this way? It's so painful. It's so devastating. I am so tired already. I'm so tired of waiting for the time to come for the two of us. NO! That can't happen. That can't happen! It's impossible! As long as you love him, nothing will happen. I lost the war. I lost the game of love. But I love you. I really, really love you... but I can't have you.

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I hope, even just a little, you love me, too.

I hope you think of me the way I think of you.

I hope you hoped for the two of us to exist.

I hope you hoped to hug me... to kiss me... to tell me you love me.

I hope we can be lovers.

I hope you and I can exist.

Haa... I just hope you love me, too... though you love him - very much.

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Don't forget me. Please don't forget that, once upon a time in your life, there was a guy who became friends with you - a friend with whom you felt safe... secure... comfortable... a friend who fell in love with you.

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I hope you won't forget me when you get married.

I just hope it's me you'll marry.

I really love you... I really do.

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But no matter how long this letter would be, I know the fact that I can't have you. So I'll say goodbye to you, my dear.

Goodbye, and I love you.