A poem about my feelings on what happened when I was little & abused. doesn't happen now |
I love you mommy and am sorry. Why does my mother not care for me Why do I feel alone in the world. I don't understand why you care more about yourself instead of me . If you did care for me than why did you tell people that you don't care for me, that you never wished I was born. I don't understand how can you gave birth to me than treat me like I am nothing? What did I ever do to you to deserve this kind of punishment. I don't understand why drugs are more important to you than I am. Please tell me what did I do wrong and I will fix it, just tell me. How can you stand there and try to kill yourself while I am watching? why? I promise I wont cry any more just please pick me up and tell me you love me. Just please pick me up. Why did you give me away and to your grandma. Do you not love me anymore? Did I do something wrong? Am sorry mommy for being a bad girl please forgive me and stop hitting me please mommy. please mommy don't hurt her. I promise she will stop, "please little girl don't cry" No mommy don't hurt her hurt me instead. I am sorry mommy I was a bad girl am sorry Please don't hurt me please. I promise to be a good girl. Mommy am hungry, are you going to feed me? Sorry mommy I should not have asked please don't hurt me. No mommy I don't want to go with him. he hurts me mommy please save me. I am sorry mommy I was a bad girl please forgive me and tell me you love me. Why wont you talk to me with out yelling? Why wont you hug me and tell me I am safe? Mommy I don't feel safe, please stop and listen to me. please mommy. I am sorry I will be a good girl next time. I promise I wont cry or scream just please stop hitting me. I love you mommy and I am sorry. |