A deeply personal and true poem on the anniversary of my lost mothers death. |
-Trust In Me And Fall As Well- by Keaton Foster She said Back when she lived Trust in me and fall as well I ignored her Refused to listen I wanted to believe More than anything else After all She was my mother The giver of this life So badly I wanted it to work out That I refused to see That it was falling apart Ripping and tearing At every seam I had no idea Of the obvious But then One darker day When I was twelve She looked at me For what would be The very last time Calmly she said Son, my child, my love All of it lies I must leave you here Alone In this world of wolves I must set myself free By abandoning you She rubbed my head Kissed me on the cheek She further added My offspring In yourself alone You must come to believe There is no other choice At least that I can offer I watched her leave Never again Would I see her face Never again Would I feel her love As she wished I was very much alone Decades upon decades Would slip on by Until one day The phone rang It was a man unknown He said, my misplaced son Your mother has died She drank herself to death Her funeral At this time and date If you have the heart Would you attend Stunned I held my true reply He did not say goodbye He just hung up the phone At that would be it I found my way to go I was there all alone No siblings did I know Just strangers All standing around Feeling sorry for her And I can only assume Feeling significantly more Sorrier for themselves I said nothing As the preacher spoke His well-crafted lies For a second convinced me She was all those things To those who knew her Long after I To me she was something else I watched on as one by one People paid their respects And then ultimately It was just her and I Just like The last time I saw her She was deep below With the world upon her chest I said what I was sure Had always needed to be said Verbatim I repeated her final words At least the ones that stuck The ones I held close to my heart Trust in me and fall as well… Trust In Me And Fall As Well Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2014. |