What Do I Want Out of Life?

What do I want out of life?
A job, a house, a normal wife?
Forgive me for my disobedience but
That kind of life simply won’t make the cut

The sand of the desert underneath my feet
The wonderful strangers I am sure to meet
Love I might find in lands far away
The best thing I ever did was get out of the fray

Alas, I have no means of funding such a trip
My dreams are dashed far too quick
Yet there are other demons I can turn to
To give my life a different shade and hue

Pleasure of which I’ve never felt before
Happiness arrives at my mind's shore
I’m floating on clouds high in the sky
But the downhill slope is surely nigh

My arm is a minefield of sizeable craters
Around me are people, all of whom are traitors
I can’t stop shitting myself, please tell me how
The only thing I feel is sadness now

All I do is wait until she visits again
My thin sharp mistress, end like a pen
What do I want out of life?
Please just get me out of this strife