empty

Emptiness

The pain of hearing someone talk about my weight,
Never seems to come to a hold.
Wondering if starving myself is good enough to stop the cruel words
The others gossip behind my back.

The food never stays down if I have anything to do with it.
As soon as I eat I am off to the bathroom
Puking seems to be a way to keep the fat away.
My stomach aches with pains of emptiness .

Ive never been good enough for any of the guys,
People always judge me by the size of my thys.
Theres nothing much I can really do
Besides pour the pain out of my mouth.

No one knows what im going through.
Its hard to keep living life like this
But if im skinny,
No one will talk about my weight.