Lost in oblivion of love wanted, had and lost |
I lie vertical like the seams of time in continuum. I think and I ponder like the second hand of a clock. I close my eyes like the sun sets low in the West. My body is still as the cold stare you gave me. I do not want to awaken from the dream; the mini-movie I played in my mind. I was blissful, full of life, full of vigor. You were there, I was there, we were together; holding hands you and I. Everyone was around us in their own dream; while you and I were in ours. Then there was a disturbance - an avalanche of voices, bells and tears. How could this be avoided? How could this be stopped, now that it's here? Will the sound of the drastic waves go away? Can there be any safety aboard this sinking ship? My eyes begin to flicker, flicker; like a moth that has gotten too close to the flame. I feel the heat of the sun and the harsh coarse grains of sand under my body. I am awakening into something I do not know. I am too listless to force myself back into dream mode. And as my eyelids fully open..."one..two..three," as I count to myself.. slowly raising my head followed by my neck and shoulders - resting on my elbows. I begin to see all around me - it's warm, bright, colorful and welcoming. Where am I? How did I get here? Am I alone? I try not to panic as I gather my thoughts, sinking my chin in my chest - I hear something. Is it the strong waters that have now calmed to peaceful waves? No, it isn't. Is it the little patter of the turtle that has been gently delivered by the sea? No, not that either... I hear...I hear...a coconut knock on the ground as it ripely falls to its demise. Scrunch..scrunch; the sound the sand makes coming louder in my direction. I squint, trying to calculate the figure. It's you..it's finally you. Overwhelming gushes of emotions rise to my mind compelling me to smile, but, I have questions... Can I trust this? Is this real? Without uttering the words; I raise this question to you with my eyes. You look at me, you look down, then once back again at me, and you give me a stare.... I patiently wait for your reply and I continue to wait - seconds..minutes... I close my eyes for what seems to be just a 'blink', just to find your broad back drifting away from me. I watch you slowly...and I hear you..scrunch..scrunch; distancing yourself from me. See: I was there, you were there...but NOW we are not HERE together..floating in the distance of time. |