I Want To Leave

I want to leave...everything and everybody
I want to leave my heart behind
Pack away all the memories and sadness
Tissue paper wrap up the tears and just go
Just drive...until I'm tired
and fall sleep in the arms of someone who doesn't see me
Only the girl he thinks I used to be

I can't be her anymore
Years came and went away with my smile
Left my face upside down
Age dug in deep
The weight of life left it's depression there

I want to be left alone...then I'll always be right
Doesn't matter what they say
They never said they loved me, did they?

I want to leave...and shut off my emotions & tears & rage & inferiority
Inferiority...inferior infuriates
Burns those bridges that may have lead him back to me

I want to leave...and know he'll never find me
Not because he's not looking
Only because I keep moving
Then I have control of his rejection and he'll never pin that on me

I want to make him cry...and pine away a few years more
I'll make him search the globe
He won't have to know about it, I can make it all up in my head

I want to leave...and make him beg me to come home
I won't...submit to him or go where he needs
I have big plans that I have thought of yet

He'll always love me if he never says he doesn't
He'll always love me if we never speak a word