A poem on the struggle between holding on and letting go of a gripping love & addiction. |
Break Free Break free Addicted to chaos Stripped of all my inner peace Chemicals consume all the darkness inside Time eats away at my spirit Drowning in emotions I’ve laid aside Wishing, hoping, for the light to shine Missing the brightness of the light that once was Chasing a high that can never be attained Settling for a cheap buzz There’s a dim light in a dark, damp room A room that was once so bright, cheerful And full of life What happened here? Day by day it seems as if nothing changes But looking back, nearly everything is different The flowers aren’t so vibrant I can barely hear the music The ticking clock replaces words Feelings are dull and unwelcome but numbness? No. Quite the opposite Pain grows deeper every day Rooted within me, where there once was a rose Never-ending promises of spring I hold on for a new blossom In the distance- a hidden field of flowers A bright cluster of stars Shine through a pitch, black sky I wonder if I should gaze at these stars forever As I always have Or wander off to find the scent that pulls me in The wind whispers softly through the breeze Break free Michelle Elizabeth 2012 |