Life Without You

Life Without You

There you stand; your reflection in my rear view mirror and I’m driving away. You look down at the driveway shoving your hands in your pockets. Every time, it’s the same. You face your reality the minute I drive away.

Once again, I’m leaving to face my life without you. Do you really know how I feel? Do you have any idea how hard it is to just drive away? The internal war begins again. How many times will I drive away leaving the one I know loves me unconditionally?

You vanish from my view as I turn onto the road. The emptiness grows as each mile ticks on the odometer. My reality is looming, and my fantasy is behind me. Without my fantasy, my very own reality would bury me. I know that, without any doubts.

You alone support me. You listen to my heart aches. Your quiet voice calms my deepest fears. Your wisdom gives me the strength to face my most challenging days. You alone accept me for being me, honoring the choices I’ve made in the call of family duty.

Sitting at the stop light, I feel your spirit surround me. I feel you sending me your strength, because you know I’m going to need it. The emptiness begins to fade as memories of our moments together fill me with hope.

A horn blares behind me. I look in the mirror willing it to be you, but it’s not. It’s just another impatient person wanting me to face my reality, sooner rather than later. A sigh escapes, and the odometer ticks closer and closer to my fate.

My cell phone pings. I grab my bag and start rifling through my purse. Flipping the phone open, I read the text from you. “I love you. The miles between us don’t matter. I can’t imagine my life without you. “

I look up. The impatient driver that had been behind me jerked his car into my lane. He barely missed a head on collision. It didn’t help me. The rear quarter panel of his car hit me dead on. He sent me spinning out of control heading straight for a huge oak tree. I tried to get control of the car. The seconds that I’m sure it took, seemed like hours. Nothing I did made any difference; speed and inertia were in control of my reality.

My darling, you sent me your strength and love. My last thoughts of you filled me with hope. Now you have to find the strength to face your life, without me.

Coloring the World Prompt: Life Without You
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