Eternally in BLISS

There was a time, love, when we were not together.
I know that it is hard to believe.
But once you whispered those sweet words in my ear
and wiped my tears with your sleeve

You kissed me for the first time
And nothing else seemed to be real
But your golden hazel eyes
That sealed that dreaded deal

You said you’d be back before I could forget
The lifetimes that we spent
And I watched you board that plane
Repeating your promise to cover my secret dissent

The day you returned home to me
Was the day I stopped trusting love
Because another was wrapped around your shoulders
The pain I felt is something I cannot bear to speak of

I couldn’t help but breath in doubts
That everything you were had been fake
I used to think that you were true
But I let myself believe that you were just a mistake

I hated thinking about you
I hated knowing that we could have had it all
And not this mess,
Not this twisting brawl

And that girl you replaced me with
Was nothing but a face.
Her laugh was a cackling, baby hyena
And her brain showered pity on the human race

I pretended to be happy,
At least for a little while,
Bet then you were smiling at her like you once did with me
And that was when my emotions became completely hostile

I wish that you could have seen the way
That you cracked my heart like glass
The way you left me stranded
Like a wilting dandelion in browning grass

I wish that I could have stopped myself
From saying those things that ruined the best piece of you
I was caught up in the deadness of my own heart
And overlooked the damage that my brokenness could do

I wish that you could have seen me
The night that my wall of strength crashed down
I crawled up in a ball wearing your old, red jacket
And let my world die ‘til I forced myself to come around

The pain came and went like waves
Some mornings were a mere ripple under my feet
Just little reminders
That then quickly retreat

Other times, you were a wave,
A tide that took me all the way to shore
And I would sink into the memories
Until my soul was heavy and sore

It wasn’t until a month later
That I could bear to see your eyes
For the thought of you made me hollow
But the hope in your name brought my compromise

The day that you called me,
I think it was a Tuesday night,
Your calm familiarity over powered my rage
And I gave up my side of our hopeless fight

My efforts became stronger
And I let myself think of you once more
It was only then that you became clear again
And my unreasonable hate of you became an old bore

I still remember the moment
When your arms collapsed in mine
After three months of not seeing my best friend
I could smell a strange color of love that I still cannot quite define

I’ll tell you that that girl must’ve been
A bit brighter than she led on
Because she saw the truth in that embrace
And somehow, by morning, she was gone

That day you really returned home to me
Was the day I stopped trusting fate
And accepted that if two people are better together
They will find their way back no matter how long they must separate

There was a time, love, when we were not together.
And it all started with that kiss
But now we are here, locked in time
And eternally in BLISS