Chapter 7 Poem 3 - A love song II

"I am finally at peace
With the idea that there is no more you and me
And it used to hurt so much and it used to feel so wrong,
‘Cause my name with yours, sounded like a love song.
Love struck fools and a catchy melody
Our story could have been made into a Shakespearean masterpiece
Today, you chose to come, I can still see you standing there
I could see you through the peep hole, your smell seeping through the door
Standing there in something from Kmart, that u made look like couture
And I question this, all of it. I thought it was a dream
From your grip, I swear I thought I was free.
U see my brain jumped ship, because he gave up on me
I am a man controlled by his heart and that I'll always be
Common sense does not live here and logic does not reside
Only a mans lust, hypocrisy, and his pride.
But I let you in, for reasons I now know
Because for the first time, I can let you go
When I was lost in your eyes and your beautiful face
Dawning red lipstick with a smile that lit up the place
Right there in that exact moment is when it hit,
I understand why my brain abandoned ship
I do, only listen to my heart
And my brain is crafty, but not really smart.
He thought what you thought, that I want to have u back in life
But I and my heart are tired of all this strife
So I have to say it now, it can never be
There is no such thing as us, now it is only me,
my sad poems, the heart on my sleeve.
Baby I promise you that is all I got
That and a song in my head, whose words I forgot”

“But you promised you’d never leave and
And I haven’t changed one bit
I’m still that little girl that you feel in love with
And I need you now, more than any other time
I swear I feel like I’m losing my mind
I can wait, I can change, and I can be a better woman
If you leave me now, you don’t know what you're losin'!
Remember the one time, when I feel off my bike and I skinned my knee?
We were 8 then, and you ran over and you comforted me
Oh I cried and I cried and you soothed me,
Then I gave u a kiss and you yell out 'COODIESS!!"
I knew then, that I loved you and you were my prince
How can you just end it like this?
I'm sick of the metaphors, this is so wrong
This relationship is not a fuckin’ love song
So please, I need you to stay
How can u love me, and then turn away?"

“I do love you, but I can’t, because I know better.
We will dance to this song now and forever.
You'll hate me today and love me tonight
And tomorrow we will have another bitter fight
So Goodbye, my dear I guess I'll see you around."

“Goodbye? That’s it. A wave of your hand and so long?"

"Yeah, Like you said, this is not a love song"