I Want To Kiss

I want to cry,
I want to wail,
I want to bawl,
I want to kick and scream to the havens,
I want to rip myself apart,
I want to curl up and shrivel away,
I want darkness,
I want the world to stop,
I want to pull my hair out,
I want to stay in bed and never come out from under the covers.

I want to kiss,
I want to be held,
I want to be hugged,
I want to be touched,
I want to be loved,
I want to be fucked,
I want to be told I’m beautiful,
I want to be told you complete me,
I want a best friend,
I want to be myself with someone.

I want this pain to stop,
I need this pain to stop,
I can’t handle this pain anymore,
The pain that I feel when I see others kiss, hold, hug, touch, love, fuck, talk kills me inside every single time.

I want this loneliness to stop,
I need this loneliness to stop,
I don’t want to be lonely anymore,
I can’t be lonely anymore.

I need someone to love and for them to love me in return.

I want, I need, I don’t want, I can’t.

The pain.